Turning in my registration tomorrow. Please pray for me. Please text me weekly, daily, or randomly to hold me accountable, encourage me and let me know I am loved. I can't do this without my friends and family. The trainer told me my age group is the most competitive. Today in my first spin class, our instructor said, "Alicia and Chad are new here. They're good looking people. Only good looking people are allowed in this class." Everyone laughed. I wanted to leave. It makes me so sad and sick that this is how experiences are at a gym. I was also given the oldest bike in the class. I can't imagine doing that to someone new. I would give up my bike in a heartbeat to make someone feel comfortable. P.S. the left pedal broke off while I was spinning. I'm lucky I don't have a broken ankle. I was so embarrassed. Normally, this type of class would've discouraged me. I would have never went back. However, I have a triathlon to train for. Today is only day 1. This is why I need everyone's encouragement. I can't do it on my own. Thank you! Please be with me on this 6 week journey. Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Week 1 TRI for Roses
Following 10 days of antibiotics and almost 2 weeks of not being the gym, I have decided to compete in a triathlon on November 16th. I have never even ran a 5k. Seriously. I've ran 3-4 miles a few times but never in a race. This will be a 300 meter swim, 8 mile bike, and 2 mile run. The only thing I am sort of comfortable with is the running. I am absolutely terrified. I will most likely regret this tomorrow. In fact, I'm already regretting it today. However, I want to change. I want to change my heart, my mind, and my huge struggle with depression and self worth. My goal is to complete the triathlon. Not place first, not to be like "hey, I did a triathlon." I'm not going to put a sticker on my car...I just want to keep this promise to myself. I want Brooklyn to see me as a strong woman, a strong mommy, and I want her to know I will do what I say. Most of all I want her to know I love myself. How else can I ever accept Christ's love? How could she? Turning in my registration tomorrow. Please pray for me. Please text me weekly, daily, or randomly to hold me accountable, encourage me and let me know I am loved. I can't do this without my friends and family. The trainer told me my age group is the most competitive. Today in my first spin class, our instructor said, "Alicia and Chad are new here. They're good looking people. Only good looking people are allowed in this class." Everyone laughed. I wanted to leave. It makes me so sad and sick that this is how experiences are at a gym. I was also given the oldest bike in the class. I can't imagine doing that to someone new. I would give up my bike in a heartbeat to make someone feel comfortable. P.S. the left pedal broke off while I was spinning. I'm lucky I don't have a broken ankle. I was so embarrassed. Normally, this type of class would've discouraged me. I would have never went back. However, I have a triathlon to train for. Today is only day 1. This is why I need everyone's encouragement. I can't do it on my own. Thank you! Please be with me on this 6 week journey.
Turning in my registration tomorrow. Please pray for me. Please text me weekly, daily, or randomly to hold me accountable, encourage me and let me know I am loved. I can't do this without my friends and family. The trainer told me my age group is the most competitive. Today in my first spin class, our instructor said, "Alicia and Chad are new here. They're good looking people. Only good looking people are allowed in this class." Everyone laughed. I wanted to leave. It makes me so sad and sick that this is how experiences are at a gym. I was also given the oldest bike in the class. I can't imagine doing that to someone new. I would give up my bike in a heartbeat to make someone feel comfortable. P.S. the left pedal broke off while I was spinning. I'm lucky I don't have a broken ankle. I was so embarrassed. Normally, this type of class would've discouraged me. I would have never went back. However, I have a triathlon to train for. Today is only day 1. This is why I need everyone's encouragement. I can't do it on my own. Thank you! Please be with me on this 6 week journey. 
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